I dont know why Im screaming

I try to catch my breath and gaze at my past

I dont want to be the one the battles always choose

I finally realized Im the one confused

I dont want to be the one to scream

Its like a habit, I need to break

I need some company, Ill show you what I mean

I finally realized, that tonight it should all end

This pain Im going to mend, end it tonight

Ceasing to exist

I need help to save me from this

This faithlessness, this helplessness

Sometimes I think I trust you all too well

Its so much easier to just run, and escape it all

Then face everything, all the pain, all alone

I have become so numb, so cold

Something has been taken, a secret locked away

Something Im afraid youll see

If I could retrace every wrong move I made, and

stand up and take the blame, you know I would

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past

It brings back these memories I wish I never had

I wish I could let go and never look back, and never

look forward so there would never be a dark past

Washing it aside, all of my helplessness

inside, pretending I dont feel this way

I look so happy, so content

I wish I could run, get away from this numbness

This nothingness

I want to take all this shame to the grave

There are those who want to talk this and that

It gets to the point where people get hurt, faces

smashed into the dirt

I tell the truth so clearly, but you dont want to

hear me

I got a heart full of pain, a heart full of stress

and a head full of anger

I hate myself

And I hate everyone else even more

My pain gave me something to set my sights on

Never forget these blood sweat and tears that went

into this life

Hate is even better, all this stress and pain gave

me something to write on

I told you everything loud and clear but nobody

wants to hear

I feel so faithless, lost under the surface

I cant face life alone

I dont know what you all are expecting of me

Under the pressure of walking in your shoes, every

step I take is another mistake

Ive become so numb, so cold, I cant feel you all

there

All I want is to be more like myself and less like

you

Youre smothering me, holding so tightly afraid to

let me go

Everything you wanted me to be is falling apart

right in front of you

You want me to be perfect, but thats impossible

Im just a mistake, someone incapable of trust and

love

Long I searched for answers from up above, but like

all those other times, I was betrayed

Even to this day, I dont want to go your way

I just want to be me, and not what you want me to be

I cant be what you want me to be

I can only be me

I know thats not good enough, but thats all I can be

So dont stay, just go away

I want to tear myself up inside

I want somewhere to hide

So dont stay, go away, and get away from me.

Under the sun

The shadows surround me

I feel alone

Nobody can hear me

But Im screaming so loud

I feel all alone

In this faceless crowd

Isnt it strange?

How we all feel a little weak sometimes

Just looking for a place

Under the sun

These shadows surround me

I still fill alone

I scream louder

Yet no one hears

In the faceless crowd

My eyes fill with tears

I feel all alone

I guess we all feel a little weak sometimes

But why must I feel this way everyday?

Looking for answers, searching for the way

I dont understand why I go through so much pain

This betrayed heart I cannot contain

I feel all alone

In this faceless crowd

But I guess we all feel a little weak sometimes

Ive been bleeding for you

Did you know when I fell for you, you broke my fall?

My heart, you hold at gunpoint

The tears I cry for you

Bleed from my heart

Somewhere, back there I left my worries all behind

My problems fell out of the back of my mind

I fell for you, you broke my fall

I gave you everything

You gave me nothing at all

My back is up against the wall

I fell for you, you watched me fall

You broke my heart, you watched me bleed

This pain inside me, you conceived

You cut inside my soul

Cut into it whole

I feel in condemnation

All this pain and insults Ive taken

I fell for you, you watched me fall

Did you ever really care at all?

You took my heart, you took it all

You cut into my soul

You broke my heart over and over again and watched me bleed

All this pain, you have conceived

I cant take this anymore

Somehow, Ive got to find a way out

You sat there, you watched me cry

You saw the pain in my eyes

You broke my heart, you watched me bleed

All this pain, you have conceived

Im sick of your insults and the pain you cause me

The more you talk, the more I bleed, cant you see?

You mean everything to me

But to you, Im nothing

I dont need that in my life

You broke my heart, you watched me bleed

All this pain you have conceived

I dont need this anymore

So say bye bye, and watch me leave